Saturday, October 15, 2005

im gettin depressed, i cant seem to get e ans for all these doubts.. i dunno y one can go ahead to do wat he wanna do stubbornly despite e many warnings he had.. arent he afraid things may turn out to be really negative? i dun understand y he cont to put them on wen she's always against to it.. e 2 previous times, e 3rd time, n tis's e 4th time.. cant u juz get enuff of those?! she's gettin really down nw.. );


im really feelin kinda inferior nw.. i dunno watz gonna happen on mon.. really.. i noe im nt gonna die, bt i dunno whether i'll be contracted wif e disease.. i dunno whether i'll be isolated frm e rest.. i really DUNNO! i dunno y tis disease passes ard e sch n made us all go for e check-up.. im worried )'; it doesnt really swell up, bt there's a coin-sized pinkish little bump appearin on e arm.. though its onli e 1st day, bt im afraid it'll becum bigger e next day.. i dun wanna drag my family n close frenz down.. haiz.. dunno wat to do.. its like everythin became outta control n i cant seem to get any more optimistism..


e older u r, e more worries u're gonna get..
as u becum more sensible, e more mistakes u're gonna create..
n as u tot everythin wil stil go on smoothly, ttz where u dun plan them well..
e higher ur hopes r, e more disappointment u get..
while sumthings r meant nt to be, forcin ur way thru may juz cause more unhappiness..


feelin vexed..
chloe feels 9:20 PM